That, which was the reason that I looked forward to each day, today makes me cringe backwards and leave it all. That, which brought out the best in me, today brings out that vicious being in me who doesn’t mind even harming herself, to stay away from it.
It became a part of me, it made me who I am, but I don’t belong there anymore. Every time I gave it more than it expected, it graciously bestowed on me more than I had expected. But, my paradise suddenly isn’t the place I used to know.
People changed, but they had changed earlier too. This time, perhaps, the values changed too. The time has perhaps come to again look for a new beginning. . . a whole new world may be, new skies and new horizons. How long it shall take, I do not know. But then, I have never really known . . .
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This kind of sounds like my last job and is the reason I retired. ;-)
Tabor: That is interesting... I have been wondering if people feel this way, or is it just me. Thanks for sharing.
Hi there Phoenix, beautiful haunting writing, but oh so true. Thank you for your generous feedback (Almond Blossom In Suburbia)you'll have to pop in early next week to pick up the next episode.
Gwei Mui: Thank you... and I simply loved Almond Blossom.
Phoenix, that was really quite beautiful. And like Taabor, I thought that it was about a job - I know I have felt the same way. You right so wonderfully - I love the lyrics that your words assume!
Audrey: Thank you. Yes, it is about a job ... a place I once loved ... (sigh)
I find that the biggest changes are the most scary, but they can be the most rewarding too. Good luck with your decision.
Your flowers below are lovely.
Holy crow.....
Now that is interesting. I hope you find peace in this situation.
Excellent writing, and now I need to learn more.
Renee xoxoxo
Change is always an ongoing process, and our reactions to it are what give us oportunity to learn and grow, I think. I really enjoyed this piece of writing...
I wish you luck in whatever future enterprise you embark.
Many thanks.
Greetings from London.
Sarah, Renee, Jinksy, ACIL: Thank you!
We were in Rajasthan in March and it was lovely weather.
I' imagine you are broiling now.
The desert roase below de;ight.
Elizabeth: You were here at the best time I think .... it is unbearably hot now!
Beautiful writing Phoenix. Change is a scary topic but it is inexorable.
It's sad when these kinds of changes happen, esp if we don't want them too. Some sort of paradise, per se, is so important. If it's a job, a backporch, a state of mind, an activity or hobby, they're necessary places to go to. I hope yours improves or perhaps a better one comes along.
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I read this three times. Precise, sharp, so well spoken, and so true of life in its seasons. I could have read this as a poem, line by line...Each important in its own right.
Barry, Joanne, Wiyono, Meredith: Thank you.
My circumstances are different but your words describe a lot how I feel.
I smile - you have a new adventure ahead of you. All will be well.
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